Yeah I need you...

Well....

Sun, 11 Jul 2004 03:53:18 GMT

Well... I will be leaving soon. *sigh* I really dont wanna. I mean my life was like looking up for once. And now I really dont wanna leave.

Today was fun. I slept till 1 something and then I got some more stuff together to take up to WVU and then I went downstairs to play a game. When I was playing, Anna called and we decided to go see HP. Well I look up the showtimes and they are only playing it at 10:45! >_

bleh...

Thu, 08 Jul 2004 04:23:06 GMT

Today was erm..intresting...but FUN!!!

This morning our neighboor decides to start working on their roof...at 9:30! >__

sigh

Wed, 07 Jul 2004 04:26:25 GMT

I want to meet new people! Or well not exactly meet new people but, get to know people that I dont really know that well! Someone that I dont know that well TALK TO ME! Lol...*sigh* Im beggning to hate summer for a number of reasons...</3 On the upside, whose getting a rat, Yes thats right. I is!

Hurrah!

Tue, 06 Jul 2004 19:23:00 GMT

Well, in my last entry, real entry that is. I told yall that I was going to get a rat. Well yeah, we went to the pet store and I have my money ready and everything. Im holding one and I do believe I have found the perfect one. Well my mom says to put it down and we still have to "talk" about it. Yeah, so when she said talk she meant that she wasnt going to allow me to get one although she had promised me one. Liars! >_<

Well, now, the last week that I will be here for a whole week. For I have to go to HSTA camp on the 11th. ARGH! No one understands how much I DONT want to go! But all well...Now I have a reason for wanting to go. See...my mom comes in my room this morning and is like " I have a bargin for you. If you go to HSTA camp without acting as if it is the worst thing in the world then when you get back you can get a rat! HURRAH!!!!! SUCCUSS!!! And she cant go back on it this time. MUAHAHAHA!

Well Im out. Comment if you cn help me think of a good name! <3

Tue, 29 Jun 2004 18:17:18 GMT

New layout! Thanks for the icon Nickitha!

Headhurt...Bleh!

Mon, 28 Jun 2004 03:53:03 GMT

Obviously by the title of this entry...I have a headhurt. It hurts...alot...All well...Life goes on.I am trying to stay in the best of spirits at this moment because for about years now I have wanted a pet rat and I might oh so joyously become a proud rat owner soon. Hurrah! (Although Candice is not to keen on the idea)

Today was fun. Woke up. Which actually I didnt mind waking up and rolling out of bed this morning.Then went to church...Then went to the flea market with mom. Was quite the experience. We are so goofy when we both are in good moods.We saw all kinds of spiffy vintage stuff there. I have fallen in love with this old like dresser thingmabobber. Ohh...Gives me chills. Then we walked about the flea market finding other too cool for school furniture. Then we came home and we both took naps. And then went to the evening service which was quite fun becuase the kids who went to Alpine Camp did a presentation about it and it was funny.

Well Im off to read so Becca doesnt like kill me! <3

I believe in fairys...I do...I do...(lol...Danielle)

Thu, 24 Jun 2004 04:23:37 GMT

Today was actually pretty fun. I woke up and took a shower and stuff. Then I got ready to go. I was heading to lessons. I got to see Michelles baby! AWWW! It has blonde hair and blue eyes and its name is Evan. Its so adorable.

After lessons I came home and messed around with the computer and tried to save all the pictures and music on to some floppy disks and yeah...It was being stupid and didnt work.

Then I went to Danielles house and got ready to go to church with her. She was painting her nails and spilled the nailpolish on the floor and so we are like running around trying to papertowels and stuff to get it off the floor before it dried. (what?nailpolish on the ceiling? haha!) Then she spilled some on the lace tablecloth and her dad was going to be coming home from work in like 2 mintues so we had to hurry up and flip it over only to realize that it had sunk through! So we put the placemat over top of it.

Then after church (which was very fun) Danielle and me went to the family movie night thing at Magic Island and watched, well listened to Peter Pan. We meet some people that Danielle knew. And talked to them and it was really amusing. Then we came home and thats where I am now. And now Im going to bed.Nightynighty! <3

NEWS!!!

Tue, 22 Jun 2004 19:01:03 GMT

Well today so far was actually pretty decent. I was woken up around 11:30(>.<)Then I walked around the house tormenting my mother because she woke me up. Then I went downstairs and took a shower and then we left...

We went to (me and my mom) Wendys and ate, saw some people from church there. Then went over to the library to see if they had any good books. But of course, they dont. Before I went into the library I saw Emily! Very much fun because I havent seen her since school let out. Anywho...Then we went to dun dun dun...the eye doctor! And yes, I have to get glasses. But I got this very cute looking pair and I dont have to wear them all the time. I dont get them till Thursday becuase they have to do all the whatnotness to them and make them so they will actually help my vision.

Im excited becuase I get to go to Wal-Mart later today and get my pictures from my trip to Ohio back! Whoo-Hoo!!! Well Im out..<3

Sat, 19 Jun 2004 19:03:59 GMT

I feel so alone. I dont know why. I mean I know I have a few good freinds left, but I need something more. I want someone who really loves me. </3

IM HOME!!!

Sat, 19 Jun 2004 01:52:40 GMT

YAY! Im home. Well Im kinda sad because I miss having a jacuzzi and whatnot in the room. But I missed my animals and my maja and faja. But its all good. It was soo much fun. I have a bit of a cold now tho. Well I dont really feel like writing alot so peace. <3

Ohio land...

Wed, 16 Jun 2004 01:32:38 GMT

3rd night Ohio!

The most exciting thing happened last night! Our toilet broke in our hotel room and so (that wasnt the most exciting thing) but then we got transferred to the only room open with happened to be the suite! Heck yeah buddy! So there in a full-size fridge and a jacuzzi tub and OMGOSH! So amazing! Me and Danielle are running around in these 75 dolar terrycloth robes that came with the room! hehe!

Im beginning to wonder who even reads these thing...Someone leave some comments or something.

-=-sigh-=- I miss my friends. I hate losing them but I guess I will do whatever God wanted to happen in my life. And that is just the way life is. You dont understand things but all well. Life will go on. Life just sucks sometimes. I wish all my friends were happy. Truely happy. I cant even be happy unless my friends are happy.

<3

Motel rooms and eletrical sockets...

Mon, 14 Jun 2004 13:06:16 GMT

Well, Here I am. In Ohio land. -=-sigh-=- We got up at 15 till freakin 6 o'clock in the morning because her mom had to go and go to work and of course since we are in a hotel room we had to get up with her. So we all went down and got some breakfast which was actually really good. (We made waffles!)

Then we came back up to the room and her mom went to work. We watcched some tv and then hooked up PS and listened to SOAD. Then I got on the laptop, obviously still on it. We have way to many plugs in this room. Danielle decided that she wanted to play Nitendo so I go to hok it up and the plug goes right into a cup of water! AH! So I dry it off with a hairdryer and as far as I know, it still isnt working..=/! My mom will absoutely kill me! She already didnt want me to bring it. Meh, I guess life goes on.

Now Danielle is like falling asleep. We are watcing Radio! Awww! Its so sweet! -=-yawn-=- Im so tired now. I think Im gonna go and go to sleep. <3

lala

Sun, 13 Jun 2004 01:28:51 GMT

Hey yall! Havent updated in a awhile. So here I am. Updating.I dont really know what to update about. Hmm..

Yay! Im going to Ohio tomarrow! Hip hip hooray! Im excited. Twill be mucho the funo! I still need to finish packing. I have been doing that most the live long day tho. -=-sigh-=-

Ugh, I keep remembering things that I need to pack. I cant find my bathing suit. I hope I didnt leave it at someones house. AHH! I hate packing for stuff. I just wish I could snap my fingers and everything would jump out of my drawers and into my suitcase! -=-Sigh again-=-

Well Im off to go searching for my stuff! <3

lalala

Thu, 10 Jun 2004 05:12:29 GMT

-=-sigh-=- Its summer. Its only like the third offical day of summer and Im already bored. Someone call me and lets go do something! (768-9824)

I miss being close to all my friends.

I was thinking about stuff today. This past year Ive met alot of new people. And Ive made alot of new freinds. Made some. Lost some. And alot of my relationships have changed with my other friends. Some good. Some bad. I dont know. I kinda miss the way my life was with my friends a year ago. UGH! Ive also done alot of things that I would have never ever done a year ago. Shows. Sneaking around. Just stuff that "good little teacher pet Kara" would have never done. Ive changed alot over the past year. Im not sure if I like the different me or not.

I wanna go the movies. Im like obessed with movies nowadays.

Next week I might go with Danielle and her mom to Ohio! =D! That will be very kosher because I need to get out of the house.

You know what annoying? When people blame you for the relationship going downhill and they say "well you could have called me and we could have done something together" Well ya know what?! That goes both ways. If you felt the relationship falling apart. You could have called me to. Sorry, Had to get that off me chest.

-=-yawn-=- I's tired. Night yall! <3

NO MORE 9TH GRADE!!!!

Fri, 04 Jun 2004 16:33:49 GMT

Well today was so much fun. Actually right now I should be in history class but ya know...it happens. So all of us (Katelyn,Julie,Danielle,Mike, and me) are hanging out in Mr.Whites office and Im on Ms.Kennedys computer. Whoo-Hoo! No more school! No more prison! Well, Im kinda sad cuz I didnt get to talk to the person that I needed to. Well Im out to go do "stuff". <3

(Insert clever title here)

Thu, 03 Jun 2004 01:45:52 GMT

Ahh! Only 2 more days of school left! Ahh! I kinda do want school to end but now that I think about it, Im going to be stuck at home with my mom. Whoo-Hoo. And Im gonna be bored. Well kinda, I have lots of stuff to do over summer break. Some of which I look forward to (BECCA BECCA BECCA BECCA!lol), some of which Im dreading...(HSTA.BAND CAMP,Well, that might actually be kind of fun this year.tee hee)

Well, Ive got some of my problems figured out and Im doing much better than last week. Im actually halfway happy and not pretending for a bit of the day.

Ugh, I wish I could lose weight...fast.

Im wearing a skirt tomarrow. Heehee. I dont know why but Im being all pretty and whatnot.

I want to redo my room. It would be fun.

I really really dont want to lose contact with all these people that I have started getting closer to during the last part of the year. It really scares me. I hope I dont.

Well Im going to bed. Nightynight yall! <3

blah

Mon, 31 May 2004 00:56:45 GMT

I went to the prettiest place I have been to in a really long time yesterday. I wanna back there again. It was so much fun/ scary at the same time. I wish I had my camera. It was this place were a old dam used to be in Little Creek Park. It was so awesome. I fell serveral times and got my wrist cut with a tree branch but it was all worth it. I wanna back real soon because I actually felt happy up there. I kept thinking about how much fun it would be go to there with someone special. -sigh- If only I had someone special.

For those of you who care and are worried, tho very few you are, I dont know what is wrong with me. I cant tell you what is wrong with me becuase I dont know. I wish I did. I wish I found happiness in the things that I used to but I dont anymore. I just feel alone and unwanted. So if it is like I am pushing my friends away, Im really trying not to. Just dont leave me. I need you. Even if it is as simple as IM'ing me. Thats just something that I need. I love you all. Sometimes I do need my alone space and I will let you know. But other times I just need to know that someone still cares.

In some ways I really really really want summer to come and in other ways I really really dont. I dont wanna lose touch with some people that I met this year. But I do need a break from other people. I just wish this week was over because of finals and that stuff. Im going insane at my house, and oh joy...I get to spend all day tomarrow here too!

Im out. </3

Sat, 29 May 2004 02:58:21 GMT

yeah...no one cares.

...

Fri, 28 May 2004 22:55:20 GMT

Today we had a two-hour delay. Well that was all well and good except for the fact that no one in my house knew about it. >.

Shew...

Tue, 25 May 2004 01:56:47 GMT

Today was well today. Notihng to special happened. Except I did get my first job application. At the Parent-Teacher Store...Ohhh yeah. Katelyns mommy is gonna talk to my mommy about me being a fluffy next year. My mom isnt exactly to crazy about it cuz she thinks that it will "take away from my music". Yeah okay...Anywho...I cant wait till school is out! Im so excited! This summer is gonna be alright. Its gonna be really busy. But pretty fun I supose. Im going to write in my journal obessivly now because it is oh so pretty. I hate this feeling. I feel like all my friends are going their serparate ways and Im just standing in the middle, watching it all happen and Im not doing anything about. Pretty soon I feel like Im going to be all alone. Everyone will be happy and have all their freinds and I will just like exsist with no purpose at all. Well on that note, Im out. Peace. <3

Survey! (Then I promise I will work on that project)

Sun, 23 May 2004 18:11:17 GMT

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ABOUT YOU
Your full name::	Kara Lynn Martin
Age::	15
Height::	5'3 or 5'4ish?
Natural hair colour::	BrownishBlonde
Eye colour::	BlueishGreen
Number of siblings::	0
Glasses/contacts?::	I need glasses
Piercings::	Ears
Tattoos::	None yet
Braces?::	Had them...Gone now =D
FAVOURITE
Colour::	Pink and Black
Band::	Linkin Park,Evanescense
Song::	Imaginary
Stuffed animal::	Little White and my peguin
Video game::	The Sims on PS2
TV show::	Boy Meets World
Movie::	Finding Nemo,Grease, The Outsiders
Book::	The Outsiders, Any Daughters of the Moon seris
Food::	Potatoes and cheese and ranch sauce
Game on a cell phone::	Snake
CD cover::	I dont know
Flower::	Deep Pink Roses
Scent::	Most guys and Warm Vanillia Sugar
Animal::	Peguin and rats/mouse
Comic book::	Ummm
Cereal::	Fruity Pebbles
Website::	Livejournal
Cartoon::	Futurerama
DO YOU
Play an instrument?::	yesh
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?::	Nope
Like to sing?::	Yesh
Have a job?::	Nope
Have a cell phone?::	I wish...
Like to play sports?::	Nope
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?::	Nope
Have a crush on someone?::	Yesh
Live somewhere NOT in the united states?::	Nope
Have more than 5 TVs in your house?::	Yesh
Have any special talents/skills?::	Yesh
Excercise daily?::	Nope
Like school?::	Kinda sorta ish
CAN YOU
Sing the alphabet backwards?::	Nope
Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?::	Nope
Speak any other languages?::	Yesh...Gibberish
Go a day without food?::	Yesh
Stay up for more than 24 hours?::	Yesh
Read music, not just tabs?::	Yesh
Roll your tongue?::	Nope
Eat a whole pizza?::	Nope
HAVE YOU EVER
Snuck out of the house?::	Yeap
Cried to get out of trouble?::	Yeah buddy
Gotten lost in your city?::	Dont think so..
Seen a shooting star?::	Yeah
Been to any other countries besides the united states?::	Nope
Had a serious surgery?::	Nope
Stolen something important to someone else?::	No
Solved a rubiks cube?::	Yesh
Gone out in public in your pajamas?::	Yeah
Cried over a girl?::	Yeah,I cry over my freinds all the time
Cried over a boy?::	Yesh
Kissed a random stranger?::	Nope
Hugged a random stranger?::	Nope
Been in a fist fight?::	Nope
Been arrested?::	Nope
Done drugs?::	Nope
Had alcohol?::	Yeap
Laughed and had milk come out of your nose?::	No, but some girl laughed and milk came outta her nose all over my lunch
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator?::	Yeap, with a bunch of people on the elevator
Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc?::	Nope...my mom is a teacher
Swore at your parents?::	Yesh...But i was just repeating what my dad called me...
Been to warped tour?::	Nope
Kicked a guy where it hurts?::	Yeah, but he deserved it
Been in love?::	Nope
Been close to love?::	Nope
Been to a casino?::	Nope
Ran over an animal and killed it?::	My mom did
Broken a bone?::	Yesh
Gotten stitches?::	Nope
Had a waterballoon fight in winter?::	Yesh
Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour?::	Nope
Made homemade muffins?::	Yesh
Bitten someone?::	Yesh
Been to disneyland/disneyworld?::	Not yet, going soon tho =D
More than 5 times?::	Nope
Been to niagra falls?::	No
Burped in someones face?::	Yes
Gotten the chicken pox?::	Yeap
WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU
Brushed your teeth::	This morning
Went to the bathroom::	Few minutes ago
Saw a movie in theaters::	2 weekends ago...I think
Read a book::	Awhile back
Had a snow day::	Long time ago
Had a party::	Long long time ago
Had a slumber party::	Even longer
Made fun of someone::	Today
Tripped in front of someone::	Umm, Like yesterday
Went to the grocery store::	Yesterday
Got sick::	Awhile back
Cursed::	I dont know
PICK ONE
Fruit/vegetables::	Fruit
Black/white::	Black
Lights on/lights off::	Off
TV/movie::	Movie
Car/truck::	Car
Body spray/lotion::	Spray
Cash/check::	Cash
Pillows/blankets::	Pillows
Headache/stomach ache::	Niether
Paint/charcoal::	Paint
Chinese food/mexican food::	Mexican
Summer/winter::	Summer
Snow/rain::	Rain
Fog/misty::	Misty
Rock/rap::	Rock
Meat/vegetarian::	Meat
Boy/girl::	Boy
Chocolate/vanilla::	Vanilla
Sprinkles/icing::	Sprinkles
Cake/pie::	Cake
French toast/french fries::	Fries
Strawberries/blueberries::	Strawberries
Ocean/swimming pool::	Swimming Pool
Hugs/kisses::	Either
Cookies/muffins::	Cookies
p33n/bewbz::	Neither
Wallet/pocket::	Pocket
Window/door::	Window
Emo/goth::	Emo
Pink/purple::	Pink
Cat/dog::	Dog
Long sleeve/short sleeve::	Short
Pants/shorts::	Pants
Winter break/spring break::	Winter
Spring/autumn::	Autmn
Clouds/clear sky::	Clouds
Moon/mars::	Moon
FRIENDSHIP
How many friends do you have?::	Very few true
What are their names?::	Im not going into that
Do you have a best friend?::	Yesh
Have you ever liked one of your friends?::	Yesh
Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends?::	Guy
Have you ever lost a friend?::	Yeah, It sucks
Have you ever gone to an amusement park with a friend?::	Yeap
Whats an inside joke between you and a friend?::	Togetherness!
Have you ever gotten in a big arguement with a friend?::	Yeap
Whats the nicest thing youve ever done for a friend?::	Let them have everything they wanted although it hurt me alot
Whats the nicest thing a friend has ever done for you?::	Surprised me with lots of things
Do you miss any of your old friends?::	Yes, I miss them alot!
What friend have you known the longest?::	Anna, Ashley, and Danielle
Do you regret anything youve done to a friend?::	Yeah
If so, what is it?::	I dont wanna get into it
How often do you spend time with your friends?::	Like everyday
Do any of your friends drive?::	Yeah
Has a friend of yours ever died?::	Yeah
Whats the dumbest thing youve done with a friend?::	Getting locked out at 3 AM
What do you think your friends think of you?::	I dont know, Ask them...
LOVE AND ALL THAT CRAP
Have you ever been in love?::	Nope
If you have, with who?::
Are you single?::	Yesh
Are you in a relationship?::	Nope
If so, for how long?::
Do you believe there is someone for everyone?::	Yes
What is your idea of the best date?::	Just walking around holding hands and talking and then going somewhere silly and fun and meeting up with all your freinds
What was your first kiss like?::	Interesting Nicki-"Right there!"
How old were you when you got your first kiss?::	14
Do you think love is a load of shit?::	Sometimes
Whats the best experiance youve ever had with the opposite sex?::	Ummm...Kissing
If you are single, have you had any boyfriends/girlfriends before?::	yeah
Have you ever been dumped?::	Yeap
Have you ever dumped someone?::	Yesh
Whats the most sexual thing youve done with the opposite sex?::	Kissing, thats about it
WORD ASSOCIATION
Slippers::	Feet
Hat::	Head
Hard::	Floor
Free::	Space
Space::	Stars
Taste::	Nasty
Good charlotte::	Simple Plan
Red::	Danielle
Deep::	Love
Heart::	Red
Cord::	Chord
Cheese::	Yummy
Rain::	Thunder
Work::	Wendys and Warren
Pedal::	Pushers
Head::	Hurt
Bed::	Sleep
Fluff::	Fart (My moms and mine insider)
Hardcore::	Show
Race::	Go-Karts
Knife::	Blood
Jump::	The colors white & red ?
I....
am::	what I am
want::	someone who cares
need::	someone who makes me feel special
crave::	cheese
love::	my freinds
hate::	immature people
did::	get my report done
feel::	lonley and empty
miss::	Chelsea
am annoyed by::	immature liars
would rather::	be asleep
am tired of::	immature people
will always::	love you (the song)
SILLY STUFF
What is your favourite genre of music?::	Rock
What time is it now?::	2:03
What day is it?::	Sunday
Whens the last time you called someone?::	Today
How much money do you have right now?::	Some odd amount of pennies
Are you hungry?::	Yes, very
Whatcha doin?::	This survey
Do you like parades?::	Yesh, as long as Im not in them
Do you like the moon?::	Yeap, its purty
What are you going to do when youre done with this?::	Work on my history project
Isnt cup a funny word when you repeat it over and over?::	Yesh, -=-giggle giggle-=-
If you could have any magical power what would it be?::	Read peoples minds
Have you ever had a picnic?::	Yeap
Did you ever have one of those skip-its when you were young?::	Nope, My mom said I would kill myself
What about sock em boppers?::	Nope
Are you wearing any socks right now?::	Nope
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE
funny?::	Sometimes
pretty?::	Nope
sarcastic?::	Yeah
lazy?::	Sometimes
hyper?::	Sometimes
friendly?::	Sometimes
evil?::	Sometimes
smart?::	Sometimes
strong?::	Sometimes
talented?::	Sometimes
dorky?::	All the time
ASSOCIATE THESE WORDS WITH SOMEONE YOU KNOW (or dont know)
high::	Daniel
skip::	Austin
dance::	Danielle
lonely::	Me
pen::	Megan
flower::	Nicki's mom
window::	Nicki
psycho::	Me
brain freeze::	Me
orange::	Ashley
sassy::	Warren
jelly::	Evan
FOR OR AGAINST
suicide::	Against
love::	For
drunk drivers::	Against
airplanes::	For?
war::	Against
canada::	Against
united states::	For
rock music::	For
gay marriage::	For
school::	Against
surveys::	For
parents::	For sometimes
cars::	For
killing::	Against
britney spears::	Against
coffee::	For
pants::	For
WOULD YOU EVER
Sky dive?::	Nope
Play strip poker?::	Nope
Run away?::	Nope,Im to chicken
Curse at a teacher?::	Nope,not to her face anyways
Not take a shower for a week?::	No
Ask someone out?::	Yeah
Lie to someone to make them think better of you?::	No
Visit a foreign country for more than a month?::	No
Go scuba diving?::	Yesh
Write a book?::	Yesh
Become a rockstar?::	Yesh
Have casual sex?::	Nope
LAST QUESTIONS
What shampoo do you use?::	Head and Shoulders
Whens the last time you did something sexual with the opposite sex?::
What kind of computer do you have?::	Dell
What grade are you in?::	9th
Do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies?::	Nope
Or just make out?::	Never have at movies
How many posters do you have in your room?::	like 3 or 4
How many cds do you have?::	Lots
What time is it now?::	2:08

extremely long survey brought to you by BZOINK!

New layout...

Sun, 23 May 2004 17:33:54 GMT

Hey peoples...As you can tell I have a new layout...I likes it alot! I think its purty. I like the scrollbar alot to! Hehe...I's a geek. Ya know...I should really be typing up this report thing for history...But I dont really feel like it. I cant wait for school to be out. I cant wait to get away from stupid annoying teachers. To get away from stupid annoying people. And just well to get away. Today wasnt all that eventful but then again its only 1:30. I got up >.

I love old school nick shows!

Sun, 23 May 2004 17:20:50 GMT

You are CLARISSA EXPLAINS IT ALL. She is a rad
chick with absolutely no fashion sense. If you
are a guy and chose this... you are gay.

Which old school Nickelodeon show are you?
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ARGH!

Sat, 22 May 2004 01:36:45 GMT

This is going to be a complaing entry. I hate the way things in my life are going right now. I just hate it. My dad doesnt even care about me now. My mom is "to stressed" to care. For example, One day I tell her I had a bad day and she goes "So what? Dont take it out on me." Then I have people not being friends with me when I dont know what I did to them. All well, if they actually cared about me in the first place they would be a little more upset than to just be like "Okay, fine, we arent friends anymore." Most the time, its like noone here actually cares. They are to preoccupied with their own lives to care about mine. I feel bad when I actually care about myself becuz most of the time Im to busy trying to make things better for my freinds. But then again, Ive come to learn, Why try to make things better for someone who isnt going to care aout you in return. I dont know. I just give up. Lately its like I have been pushing everyone away but thats becuz I have felt like I have been pushed away so many times by so many people that I just give up. Right now I dont care who my friends are and Ive learned that nowday friendships obviously dont matter that much. Friends quit being friends with people because of rumors that arent true. Friends quit being friends because of a boy. Or even friends quit being friends becuz of people that you know. Its just so annoying. I just want to just go away and not come back to this place ever. But then again, I wouldnt do that to some people, It would make them to happy. Oh and by the way, If you dont like this journal and me complaing in it simply dont read it. I just need something to express my feelings in before I explode. I just wish I had someone who I really felt geniually cared.

Roll,Roll,Roll....

Thu, 20 May 2004 01:09:20 GMT

(Danielle Ellen! Its STILL stuck in my head! ROAR!) Anyways...Well Last entry I left off in 3rd block. After 3rd I went to lunch (duh) and starved. Then went to band. I love this time in that class. Its after the concert so we dont have to play cuz we dont have really anything to prepare for cetp for Graduation and thats no big deal becuz its only a few songs and some songs from the concert. So woot. I just sit in Mr.Whites office with Staysha and Ms.Kennedy and other random people and mess around. =D! After 4th I beat John up with a golf pole then he dragged me across the band room by my arms. Then I went home. Took a nap. Called Danielle. Found out some very very interesting things that make me go ROAR ROAR ROAR!!!!!! Then took my shower and ate dinner. Did homework. >.